What does it mean to trust in God? What does it mean to have no “plan b”? What does it mean to truly live a life that
doesn’t make sense without Him? These
are all things that I have been wrestling with lately. Last year God called me to apply to School of
Dance in Montana. And from the very
first day I was here I have seen the reason why He called me here. This week a second Discipleship Training
School started here in Montana, and they will be sending their team to work
with Soldiers of Christ in June and July!
I have built relationships with girls that have challenged me and grown
me the loving way that God knew I needed for this season. I have revived the passion for worshiping God
through my dancing, and I have already seen Him move through it in incredible
ways. I get to go spread His Word at the
Olympics, which I had prayed about in Uganda before I even came to
Montana. It is clear that God has
brought me to Montana for this season.
So why do I still doubt Him? Why
do I still struggle deep down with believing that He is going to come through
for me? This week we have just over $3,000
due for our school fees and outreach costs.
I have $500 in my bank account.
And what does God say every time I go to Him in prayer and in
frustration? “Trust in me.” I thought I
had come to a place where I was able to say, “Okay, Lord. I trust in you and I
know you are going to provide all I need for school.” But the assurance I thought I had was shaken
yesterday when I found out that I owe $1,800 on taxes. Not knowing where the money for my school
fees was going to come from was one thing, and now believing God for close to
an extra two grand…I really see what little faith I have. The thing that really bothers me is not
that I may “not be able to finish school.”
The thing that bothers me is my lack of trust in God. Let’s face it. I live in America. I know a number of people that if I REALLY
asked them for the money would be able to donate to my cause. Yet God has not called me to trust in people,
He has asked me to trust in Him. He has
asked me to invite people in to the calling He has placed on my life, but when
it all comes down to it- He is the one in control of my finances. I want to have faith in Him so much that I
know, if I don’t get all of the money for my school fees, it means He has other
plans for me. He called me to Montana. I
came. If He has already achieved the
purpose He has for me here… then I am okay to move on to what He has for me
next. Because I would rather have faith
in Him, even if it looks like I “failed” in the eyes of the world...or the eyes
of myself, than to complete the school by getting money through means God did
not ask of me. What I need is not
money. What I need is strength to trust
in God. I need boldness to be obedient
to Him, whatever that looks like. I think THAT is what it means to trust in God. But I'm still learning...
Saturday, April 7, 2012
Wednesday, February 22, 2012
Let them praise Him with dancing!
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| All the wonderful School of Dance ladies |
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| Ballet class :) |
2 Timothy 3:16 tells us that “All Scripture is God breathed
and is important…” That being said,
there is not one word in the Bible that is there by accident, or that is not of
value. We recently did a project in our
school to find all the original words for “dance” in their Hebrew and Greek
forms in the Bible. The word “dance” or
a form of it is used at least twenty-seven times in the Bible. It seems to me that God found the word and
the action of dance important to include, not only once or twice…but at least
twenty-seven times! I think that
sometimes the church can forget about the power of dance and the freedom that
it can bring. In the Bible we see both
the negative and positive powers of dancing.
We see that as God was leading His people out of four hundred years of
slavery in Egypt, the most accurate response they could have was to dance for
joy. And we know that the famous King
David had no other way to worship the Lord fully but through reckless abandonment
in his dancing. We also see the negative
things that dance can be used for, such as the persuasion of Herod to put John
the Baptist to death through a dance of seduction and temptation. But whether it is used for good or evil,
there is no question that dance has power.
This is why it is so important for the church to stand up and use the
gift of dance that the Lord has given for His kingdom and His glory. In these last two months I have already seen
the Lord do so much healing in my own life, as well as give me hope for the
healing that He is going to bring to the nations through dance. I have the privilege of dancing with seven
beautiful girls from all walks of life.
We have all seen our share of joy and sorrow in life, but one thing
remains true for all of us- we have all seen God minister in and through us by
the gift of dance. God has restored my
love and joy for dancing, and I have been able to have such an incredible time
enjoying His presence. Dance is probably
the strongest way that I can connect and speak to God. When I have no more words to express what I
am going through, I know that I can simply pour out my heart to Him through the
motions and movements that He has given me.
Dance is this joy and strength that I desire to take back to the
nations. Our school has an amazing opportunity
to go to London and Scotland this summer.
We will be using dance as a way to connect with people that do not know
the Lord. We are going to use this art
to speak directly to people’s hearts about the love that God has for them in a
way that words cannot always do. Dance
breaks down walls and can penetrate into lives in such a strong force, and I
can’t wait to see how God is going to use it this summer, as well as in the
rest of my life!
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| apparently dancers kick pinatas... |
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